So, life is very mysterious…you hear it all the time, and it’s true! I have had some battles in life, many…and some of them, no, most of them, I tried to fight so hard! It’s crazy to look back and see it.
I think I am a fighter, and I have a lot of endurance, I have patience, I have tenacity…and I always thought I should fight. OK, there was one huge area that I didn’t fight, it’s weird that I didn’t. OK, again, not weird, I’ve always been passive/agressive…learning to be assertive. Here is my passive/agressive nature:
You might get me passive, but here I am aggressive...
But, I do believe that when we try to fight so hard and control our destinies and those of others, we actually RESTRICT the movement of God and the miracles He wants to give us.
If we walk off the battlefield, there is no battle…
- Step Off! White guys are good guys…
Having managed people before, I went to assertiveness training, and I did learn that being at either extreme is not really productive, constructive, effective…being dead smack in the middle, assertive, is standing up for what you believe in and being able to express it in a kind, loving way to someone who opposes you. And, simultaneously, you care, you show compassion to the other party by listening to what they have to say, hearing it and being able to respond in compassion, empathy, and a partial understanding of the moccasins they are wearing.
Walk a mile in them...
I think most people do not know how to communicate, and they are left broken and they leave brokenness and they create more brokenness. It multiples…it could have been love that was left instead. I have been told by a very dear friend, from college days, that I am a misunderstood person.
And it’s true, I feel it…that I have been misunderstood for most of my life. I found in work, as the soccer mom, wherever…that people would rather assume that I am what the rumors say, or deduce from the walls I built around myself, that I was impenetrable , aloof, stuck-up, unapproachable, tough, self-sufficient. In truth, I was a lonely, disabled soul…
Disabled Superhero, when drivin' solo
We are not created to be self-sufficient, really. We are created for connection with others. We are created to lean on others when we are weak, and allow them to lean on us when we are strong and they have their turn at weakness. We are not meant to isolate and do it alone. So, pull the plug on self reliance and learn to reach out for help, just, choose wisely, use your gut…
Go ahead, pull it, what are you afraid of?
I like being alone, I renew myself in solitude, but then, I am meant to go back out and connect, not to fight so hard…to learn how to walk off the battlefield, instead of taking on the battle. I guess it comes back to that serenity prayer that I’ve seen so many times…God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change…the courage to change the things I can…and the wisdom to know the difference.
Let us deflate our defenses and surrender to let God lead us…
Self deflation, It's not the worst thing that could happen!
Simple really, there are so many, millions of things we can’t control, but we can control ourselves, we get to choose who we want to be. It reminds me of a song, like usual, everything always leads back to a song…
Toot your song, toot your horn, clandestinely if possible
Switchfoot’s song: This is Your Life:
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you’ve got now
Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose
We really DO have everything to lose…everything. But, thank God that yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead, that it’s dead and over. Today, we get to be who we want to be: kind, loving, generous, patient, approachable, equal, open to life, to people, to miracles.
I’ve had a miracle lately, several really, but one in particular, and I told a friend, did the miracle just come as I was ‘movin on’?, or did my ‘movin on’ cause the miracle to happen?…interesting thought. But, either way, I’ll take the miracle and press forward to who I want to be.
Merry Christmas on 34th...and wherever you are...
Later on…;Q
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